Open letter to my Guru Ma Jaya:

My Beloved Guru, Ma Jaya Sati Bhagavati, left Her body on Friday April 13, 2012.  I’m not sure that I will be able to  share Her last days with you, yet, but I sure can share with you some parts of our life together over the last 25 years.

I met Ma at Her home, Kashi Ashram in Sebastian Fl, on April 19, 1987.  I knew when i met Her that She was the most wonderfully outrageous, authentic and loving soul that I had and have, ever met.  From there on, my life has been changed for the better in every way.  I have to admit that I didn’t acknowledge that for many years and I fought every step of the way not to give up the stubborness that kept me from gaining the full benefit from the love and closeness She blessed me with.  And yet, SHE NEVER GAVE UP ON ME AND NEVER STOPPED LOVING ME..not EVER.  And..She NEVER ONCE JUDGED  me..not EVER.
And so, my Ma, My GURU, my BELOVED:
I can truly and proudly say: I am so grateful to have lived the last 25 years with You, in Your Grace and in Your incomparable love.  You have been my rock , my love, my teacher, my example of how to live my life.  I need to tell You, although I am sure You know:  I will do my very best to be an example of Your teaching in every aspect of my life for as long as I HAVE life.  I have begun to learn who I am and I have caught a glimpse of who I can be. With your Grace and You by my side (or sitting in the middle of my chest guiding me and keeping me on track!) I will  continue the service work that You taught me how to do: serving the sick, the hungry,  the lonely and alone …wherever I can spread your love, caring and acceptance.  I am serving and loving God and You and my fellow man in this work, and I am so grateful to You for showing me the way. 
I will do my best to make You proud Ma
I miss You every second, yet I can go on because You taught me about Death and I got that teaching in spades, Ma!  I understand that one and know Him (Yama) intimately. I know that Death is a friend.  You left us, in the flesh, but you are just as close as ever in spirit.
Thank You for everything…in the past and yet to come in the future.
With a heart full of gratitude  and love
Your Nandani Jaya